highperformanceamc

Well...it looks like my grandfather of 75 years is fast going downhill.He's got alztimers or however the fuck you spell it real bad and don't remember who anyone is anymore. he's in the nursing home now and will be till he dies. He was a man I looked up to both figuratively and literally as he was a wealth of knowlage,wizdom and stood 6'5" in his prime. i mean his side is where I got my mutant corn fed looking size myself. his going down hill so fast after my grandmothers passing in Jan 08 has seriously wounded the moral and love my family sorta once had. My mom is so stressed out and i had close cousins whom I don't really talk to anymore becuase this has stressed us all out so much and were all hurting worse everyday he gets worse. so I just wanted to tell you all about that and thats why i really haven't been on here as of late as it seems I got one devastating blow after another that keeps me away from things that i have fun with and enjoy. Losing family is one thing,but when 3 veeerry important members die or fade away in not even 3 fucking years,it tends to make you have a bleak outlook on life!

Bart, Hang in there Man. My grandmother is goign threw the same thing.
she was born in 1919, and used to be the backbone of the family, but we are lucky if she even knows who we are nowadays.
My Dad has also been gone now for about 7 years. He always told me the only things in life thta are promised are birth, paying tax's and death.Those are the only garantees in life, so enjoy Life while you can, becouse you really never know what tomorrow holds..
So if you need anyone to chat with about things Bart, you have my digits.
Mike

When it rains, it pours.
Hang in there, man. It'll get better someday.

You cant change the Fates . Sometimes they are cruel sometimes they are gracious .
Just keep visiting him when you can . You will get more pleasure from him recognizing you , if only for a few minutes , that will last you a long time . Those few minutes will wash away the rest of it in your memeories .
For myself , my Mom is 93 this April . Still going strong living in her own house . I just went and got her some bags of fertilizer so she can get started on her garden this year .
On the down side I,m the one that visits her the most . My brother lives 2.5 hrs away , sisters live in British Columbia . When I go I take a deep breath , ring the door bell , unlock the door an go in . Same way every time . In my mind I,ve made it a ritual , thinking that it wont be so bad when I open the door and she is laying some where on the floor ..77.

death is a bitch. so is life. when I die i'm gonna be a ghost and give some motherfuckers a real shitty time.

Well...he may not only have dementia,alziemers but Parkinsons disease too and thats what the docs think accelerated the dementia and allziemers.he still don't recognize anyone. but he's stopped moaning and yelling and screaming....He's wating to die...he wanst to be with my grandma now. its times like these ya thank god for alcohol!

groan. that sounds like my old man before he passed on. his mind was already passed on. it was the life support that had him hung up in limbo. we agreed it was his time and they let him go. he did his time in this poor excuse for a world. he passed GO. he made the leap. now he's with all the other graduates, up there, laughin at us. he had a great sense of humor. i think god does too.

We buried him today after haing the wake last week. I'm sure most of you know from Spuds & Frans site when my grandfather passed...I'm gonna miss him bigtime.

I know how you feel, buddy. Keep your chin up and cherish the good times.

And Bart, after 7 years i still talked to my Dad, At first i thought i was crazey, but it seems natural anymore. Hell i talk to Randy McCorkle too, that somebitch fucks with me in the POS to this day!
As time goes on, you will remember all the good times, and that helps pull you threw it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DCGVLTyezsM
..77.